If last weeks blog felt flat and forced, it’s because it was. Trying to keep up with this blog after all these weeks and somehow managing to make it seem fresh is quite the arduous task. It’s also because the weeks leading up to last week have not necessarily fun on any account.
In the past weeks I have let you in on different aspects of my life. From my home, my family, my work, and my mental health. The last few weeks have been a perfect storm on all fronts. Between home and work situations and my father’s failing health, I was miserable. I got to a point where I was so frustrated with everything that I wanted to just say “I quit!” to everything.
Yes, including my diet.
We all get to that point sometimes. Life gets stressful and living through these trying times doesn’t help either. When you add a restricted meal plan to an already stressful set of situations things can get ugly rather quickly.
By this time last week as I was trying to write a new blog post I was just not feeling any of it. So, it was forced, flat and not much heart and soul in it. To those of you who do read this regularly, I apologize. We all have bad weeks.
And that’s ok.
We are all human and we all go through different things. I know that there are always going to be people who tell you to “suck it up”, “be strong”, “get back on the horse”…pick your phrase. As humans we all go through different life experiences and react to them differently.
While we need to acknowledge the experiences and emotions we have, we must also remember that we are in charge of the person that we want to become. That means, if things suck right now, it doesn’t mean they are going to suck forever.
I know a lot of you have an addiction to food the same way I have an addiction to alcohol. When things go bad, it’s easy for us to fall back into what feels comfortable. That’s never a good thing. One reason I never got into AA meetings was because I’d go in there and there would be a whole lot of people drinking coffee by the pot full and smoking a pack an hour. I saw it as merely trading one addiction for another.
I have found that by posting about my weight loss journey I created a person who I really want to become. Someone who is healthy, happy and (hopefully) and inspiration and help to others. Whenever those negative thoughts creep in, I need to remind myself of that. I use this blog as well as the Facebook groups Fusion Friends and Family and the RESET community sponsored by the Rappahannock Area YMCA to hold myself accountable to those standards. I also have a select few friends and family I update weekly who give me a lot of positive motivation.
So don’t give up. When things look bleak in your life, accept that these things are happening and see how you can use them to help shape you into the person you want to become. Use them to strengthen yourself both mentally and physically. Don’t use the negative aspects of your life to hold you back. You always have a choice. I quote Morgan Freeman in The Shawshank Redemption: “Get busy livin’ or get busy dyin’.” The choice is up to you.
Yes, the past few weeks have sucked. There have been a few more high points though. I’ll share some of those with you next week. As for my diet, I didn’t quit. I kept putting in the work. Last week’s weigh-in: 196 pounds. Sixteen to go.
Have a great week everyone!
Written by: Craig Repanshek